the way the world turns

Dizzy - Goo Goo Dolls.

You're cynical and beautiful
You always make a scene
You're monochrome delirious
You're nothing that you seem
I'm drowning in your vanity
Your laugh is a disease
You know you're everything I need

Everything you are
Falls from the sky like a star
Everything you are
Whatever ever you want

I wanna kick at the machine
That made you piss away your dreams
And tear at your defenses
Till there's nothing left but me
You're angry when you're beautiful
Your love is such a tease
I'm drowning in your dizzy noise
I wanna feel you scream

Everything you are
Falls from the sky like a star
Everything you are
Whatever ever you want

- music seems to be making more sense.

dads birthday.
big argument. I should have just called, but it wasn't fair. I felt so shutdown.

it's not. it's avoiding everything that I need to do. I didn't go and get an education today for this stupid assignment. I need to get my passwords for EVERYTHING changed. everything is designed to keep me distracted.

is that what everything on the internet is designed for? I think it might.

-start threading a needle-

Shallow Days - Counting Crows.

Mary Jane says its all right
She's just around the corner from the main light.
Any day now, its all right
She's standing on the precipice of big time.

And I know I'm a little uptight,
I've got to go before the sun shines.
We're just a couple small people squeezing out a life,
We need a little good time.

It's not far from here,
Mary comes and goes.
Drifting through the scenery of the shallow days below,
That is anybody knows.

You follow trains out of town and they vanish somewhere under the horizon.
Yeah well I saw Mary Jane dragged her shadow down the tracks,
Stare off in the distance.

It's not far from here,
Mary waves hello.
Smiling though she's sinking in the shallow days below,
I cant find a way out of here.

Out on the road again,
I'm much, much too concerned about mary jane.
I'm all alone again,
I like what she said, not what it means.
She leaves me drowning through the shallow days, down below.

You know I heard a band playing waltzes in a grange hall
The sun is sinking lower.
People staring, Mary Jane humming softly to herself,
Nobody really knows her.
Any day now its all right,
She tells herself that this will be the last time.
Mary Jane pulls her hair back and wonders what shell do with all her freetime.

Not too far from here,
Mary turns to go.
Smiling while the waltz begins, dancing down the road

Hey hey Mr. Freedom,
What are we supposed to think?
'Cause I'm a very tiny person and it worries me.
I'm all alone again,
I like what she says, not what it means.
She leaves me drowning in the shallow days way down below.

I'm sorry, she said,
I know its not the kind of thing you want.
I'm falling, falling down.
I'm sorry, she said.
I know I'm not the kind of girl you want.
We're falling, falling, falling, falling down.

- It seems there are curoius things in this world. Love them.